My Mental State
Do you ever wake up fearful of what you were going to see in the mirror, or on the scale, then wrap your whole day around THAT ONE THING?
I had a crazy day yesterday. We had our field trip which was good, but then my schedule got all out of whack and I had about a 4 hour spread from one meal to another. Then I ended up eating a veggie patty and salad, which isn’t on my list and I got in trouble for being late back to school because traffic was so bad. So, I ate very tight the rest of the day. I expected to wake up a bloated fool.
But I didn’t. I got a little extra sleep. I was raring to go and had an awesome shoulder workout. As I was doing my time on the guantlet, I was thinking how focused I am today. Why today?
I need this focus everyday. I cannot base my focus and control on the scale or the mirror. Instead of past success being my main fuel, I must make my drive to do better than yesterday be my fuel. I must not use lack of loss or soreness be my excuse to “have a little treat” or “do an easy day”. Often when I weigh and I’m the same as before up even up a little, I let that diffuse my drive somewhat. I have to turn that around. I’m looking for that “oh yeah? well, let me just tell you something scale. I’m gonna kick my butt today to show you!”
Today I’m focused. I’m mentally solid. When the waves of doubt and weakness roll in, I’m coming back here, to remind myself that I CAN and WILL push through it and be stronger at the end. And you can, too.
A few side notes:
***I got an amazing two piece yesterday and my one piece should be here for fitting soon. So exciting!
***The term “shawty” sucks and should be outlawed. So many good workout songs are ruined by this ridiculous, diminutive term.
***I got my first ever compliment from a FEMALE at the gym. She said “It’s so nice to see a woman with muscle here.” Talk about fuel. 
March 21st, 2008 at 4:08 pm
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March 21st, 2008 at 7:11 pm
I think we all do that. I just stay away from the scale and then I do not even have to think about it. Now you have record of it and you can visit your blog everytime something tries to mess with your mental state.
March 21st, 2008 at 7:15 pm
I managed to erase my last message but I was just going to say that we all go through that. I have stayed off the scale for months but I know I will need to probably be checking it once in awhile soon. I know that is can affect me mentally and that is why I hate the scale.
March 21st, 2008 at 7:17 pm
I need to go back to school to learn how to post a comment. Forgive me.
March 25th, 2008 at 4:39 am
Amen sista! Bring on the muscle baby! You’re doing awesome!!!