Moxie for Life

Six days later, and a few lbs heavier… I have enjoyed my week of recovery a. lot. I have been trying pretty much everything food wise I missed for 6 months. It plays a bit of havoc on the digestive system, but things are getting back to normal. I’m ready to get back into a training schedule that will build some muscle. It seems a bit harder with summer and no time constraints. I definitely do better on a strict schedule. I guess this will test my determination.

Some reflections I’ve had about competing: I feel so confident now. I know I can do pretty much anything I REALLY want to, fitness related. I know that competing has to be completely because I enoy it. The judges are going to be unpredictable so, I cannot base my satisfaction on any placings.

I also have to let go of any desires I have for people to support my decision to continue. If my husband is ok with it, then really anyone elses opinion is unimportant. Take it or leave it people, I don’t care.

My next goal is a 50 mile MS walk in September. I just decided today to go for it. My sister in law passed away last year from Multiple Sclerosis complications and my brother has been doing this walk for three years, and I have always thought about it. I’ve finally made the commitment. I have to raise $2400 minimum, but I think it will be pretty easy. Anyone wanna donate?

So, today is back to clean eating. I’m pretty certain I’ll be allowing a cheat once a week for awhile. I’ve got a trip to NY in a couple of weeks and a trip to the Northwest US in August. The next competition I’m thinking about is in October, so if I decide on doing it, I’m probably gonna do a hardcore 8 week prep. As long as I stay pretty clean bofore that I think I can do it. Right? Right!

Ok…off to drink my water.

4th in B Class at the Jr California Figure Competition!

Yeah, 4th. It sounds pretty good until you add that there were 6 in the class. I’m not upset though. I had a blast. It was seriously exhausting, but so fun. There were 12 girls in the 35+ class and I placed 7th there. The winners in that group were seasoned competitors and deserved to win. We are in negotiations about competing again. I really still have fitness in my heart, but I know that would take awhile. I don’t wanto come out looking like oone of the losers from SYTYCD.

I am so thankful to My mom, Kat and Michele (and Ashtin and Liam) who came to cheer me on. It meant so much to me to have those friendly faces in the crowd. Also, to my mom for helping me with my tan. Mom knows me in a whole new way.

I have to give lots of love to Jared for being the one to put up with the dieting, keeping me accountable, endless workouts and constant talk about fitness, taking my progress pictures for me all the time, getting up early to help me tan, spending a whole Saturday watching bodybuilders (I’m absolutely sure he LOVED that), working his tail off to pay for everything that went into this and mostly allowing me to persue something that many people don’t understand and often criticize. Thanks honey, I love you.

Props to Emma for also keeping me accountable, and so supportiveand making the awesome sign for me. The hugs she gave me at the end were better than any trophy anyone could have given me.

Many thanks to all my online friends. You all are amazingly supportive and don’t realize how important that is when doing something like this. The outpouring of kindness from strangers is overwhelming. I’d like to say more about this, but I better leave it at that.

I did have the privelege of making two online friends into real flesh and blood friends, Ana and Jen. True sweethearts. I enjoyed every minute of this weekend with you two!

Onward…

My first coat of Jan Tana is on! I think it looks a bit weird in places. Hopefully it will blend as the layers go on. I cannot tell you how excited I am. My thoughts of never doing this again are fading. I’m already looking at a contest in October. Geez, can I get myself through this one? In 48 hours from now, I will most likely be done. Kinda makes me sad in a way. Uh oh. I think I’m sick.

Actually my husband got it together. We tried to add ‘Diva’ to it but couldn’t make it look right without being dorky. So, for now, just this. But, I love it and will be very proud to sport it at the contest, um, yeah… THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW! (I got it big to wear over my suit while waiting on Saturday. I need to order another that is small and tight the way I like ‘em.)

on these…

and these…

No, I’m not sharing.

They are looking good. Abs are decent. Hope everything falls in on Saturday.

Ok, here I am. I’m a noodle. I think the heaviest I lifted today was 45 and that was on lat pulldowns, which I usually do a lot more. A skinny weakling. I weighed in at 108.9 at 5 am. My waist was 24.25 in. I’m hoping for 24 on competition day. We’ll see.

So what do I get to carb up on? Rice and Pasta? I think not, but it sure would be nice!

Off to get the pearly whites cleaned up and fresh bands on my braces. Hopefully they won’t stand out like a sore thumb.

So, I survived day 1. I was soooo tired all day. Not too grumpy, but sick of everyone asking me why I am so tired. I’m gonna sleep some extra today. Thank God I don’t have to be in school. Wednesday is carb up day and I’m dreaming of all the yummy things I want. Of course it’s probably gonna be cucumbers and salad, but hey, I won’t be complaining. Why? Because on Saturday night I will be chowing down!!

Off to make pancakes for the kids. Oh, the torture!

Hoping it goes well. I’ve been bragging about how great I feel. I don’t want to eat my words. Or, maybe I do. Do they have carbs?

I wasn’t able to get to the gym for abs yesterday with all of the end of the school year festivities, so I decided to double up today: Back and Abs. It was actually not too bad. The only thing was that it seemed like every other person there was doing back, too. I had to wait forever for the assisted pull up thingy. So I switched back and forth from abs to back and such.

This thing is so mental. Here is an argument that happened in my head today.

Me 1: Ok, 35 minutes on the elliptical.

Me 2: 20 minutes and 300 calories, that’s good enough.

Me 1: No, it’s 35 minutes, not 300 calories.

Me 2: 25 minutes, you can do the other 10 tonight with evening cardio.

Me 1: You know that won’t happen.

Me 2: 28 minutes, I have to pee. That’s enough.

Me 1: You can hold it for 7 minutes.

Me 2: 30 minutes, How about you go pee, then finish on the stairmill downstairs.

Me 1: How about you up the intesity and sweat for 5 more minutes and SHUT UP!

Me 2: Fine. You win. 35 minutes. Now can we go pee?

I made it!!!! I won! HA!