Moxie for Life

I ate a lot. I miss eating. My daughter says I’m more fun when I’m eating. Welp, back to the gindstone. Back to the crabby, dieting me.

Sorry, family. I’ll try to be nicer.

I’m telling you, I’m following the plan. I’m eating and drinking and swallowing and pumping and running and flexing. I do it all. In all the days I have been listening to Tony, this is the hardest yet. This stuff is crap. I would rather shoot 10 doses of ACV back to back than drink this concontion. I’ve tried every form of covering it and it only makes it worse or take longer to drink it. I even attempted a bit og FF/SF pudding mix in it. Nope, still crap. I’m hoping I can stop it soon, we’ll see.

Tony has allowed me a cheat for mother’s day if I really want it. Dang it. I’m wavering. Of course I want it, but will it mess up my progress? I’m thinking mentally it would give me a boost. He said just to bump up the cardio before and after. I can do that.
What would you do?

May 2nd-

My words “My mental state has kicked in. I’m all over this.”

May 5th-

My Words “Mental Blahs”

What a mixed up game this is! LOL

PS I ate ALL my green beans today! Yay, me!

I got my suits and no, you can’t see them. I’m going to decorate them this weekend and then you can see. One thing I CAN tell you is they are SMALL! Yikes. I’m pretty excited though! It feels more real every day.

Today at school a 1st grader waked up to me and looked me up and down, then said “You’re muscle-y!” I flexed my bicep for her and she cracked up. Funny!

They always throw me out of whack. I have become this creature of habit and schedule. I guess it’s good, but I need to work on maintaining control on my days off work. Not that I’m out of control, just different.

It’s weird. I’m home today with sick kids, but since I didn’t know I would be home my day started as a usual Monday. I’m around all the same garbage but it doesn’t effect me. I’m ON schedule. So either it’s the 4:00am thing, or it could be those hypnosis mp3’s I’ve been listening to. I never have cravings the days when I go to bed with that on. hmmmm?

I press on in this crazy game.

I’m having a mental blah day. I woke up not wanting to get up. I was hungry but so tired. I finally got up and couldn’t decide when to workout. After I ate and got dressed to go to the gym- for the first time ever, I seriously did NOT want to go. I whined to my family. they weren’t impressed. Finally I just decided to do my cardio here and do weights later in the day. I’m so UNmotivated today. I was reading some past posts of Beka’s and it seems normal. I do need to find balance somehow. I cannot clean my house ever. I’d hire someone, but then I have to find time to pick up before they come. When does that happen? I know I can do this, but today I’m ready for some normalcy. I’m pooped and I’ve still got 7 weeks to go. Everyone get out the cheese cuz I”m bringin’ the w(h)ine!

Could someone please tell me how to flippin flex my back?

Me: I’m tired and hungry.

T: Yep, that’s normal.

Me: My diet is monotonous.

T: Yep, sure is.

Me: Any changes?

T: No. Just what we talked about before. Eat your snack earlier.

Me: Um, ok.

T: Send me pictures every Friday, ok?

Me: Gotcha.

Pretty earth shattering, huh? Main idea: More of the same. Woo.Hoo.

P.S. 50 days!

1. I’m a little bored of chicken.

2. I’m pretty tired.

3. It’s nothing like I thought it would be. It’s better. (so far)

4. I’m finally meeting some other competitiors in my area, which is comforting.

5. I’m a stud at the gym, which is a huge ego boost.

6. Balancing competing and social activities is a pain in the butt.

7. I’m a little sick of chicken.

8. It’s sad when a half of a scoop of whey is the highlight to your food for the day.

9. My mental state has kicked in and I’m all over this thing!

10. PMS while prepping is a biatch.

PS Did I mention I’m a little sick of chicken. I was going to mention it to Tony but I’m afraid of what he might do!