Thoughts on the weekend and rest day
First of all, my thoughts on the weekend. I’m having a really hard time enjoying my weekends for the past month. I know a lot of it is getting over the fact that most of the gatherings we have are wrapped around food. Lots of it and all kinds of fatty stuff. So, I’m either standing there staring at cheese stuffed potatoes (I don’t even really like potatoes that much) or cake baked with chocolate chip cookie dough inside it and wondering how the hell I’m gonna get out of there without eating it. I hear Tony echoing…”What do you really want?” Then there are the “are you dieting” or “you’re wasting away” comments. I can see why when it gets down to the wire of competing, you just stay home. I am still working out my feelings about food and trying to mesh them. The spirit is willing, the flesh is weak.
Secondly, rest day. I don’t want to rest. I have an isatiable urge to do more. I know my body needs the break, but I’m so dedicated (obsessed). That is a main reason I need to just rest. It’s not like I don’t have million other things I need to be doing. Yeah, those darn Algebra tests that need to be graded are looming. Maybe just a little walk on the tready. After all it’s raining and we can’t go do something active outdoors. Does anyone else fight themselves to actually NOT workout at all?
January 28th, 2007 at 8:20 pm
This past Friday was the first time I did not workout because I was at work for 16 hours. I know what you mean about wishing you could just rest and feel okay with it. Next Sunday if you take a rest I will:) I’m already talking myself out of that idea in my head though. Just remember there is at least one more psycho out there that can’t rest either!!!
January 29th, 2007 at 12:26 am
you might change your mind with the rest day -when you have been doing this over 6 weeks…patience martha..:)
January 29th, 2007 at 2:19 am
I always feel like I should be working out…..resting is hard for me! Hang in there Martha! I have the same issues you do!
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January 30th, 2007 at 4:57 pm
I tried to enjoy some cake for you.
Seriously though, your will power is amazing, it is something I lack in my character. You should be proud of yourself! I am proud of you! I don’t think any of us can fully understand the commitment this endeavor takes and we don’t want to loose you at our family gatherings.